I have no desire whatsoever to work on any of my projects. I have no thoughts about it, no ambition about it, no gumption. I open OpenOffice.org and stare at the blank screen. I sometimes go as far as to even open a document. And I stare at it. Maybe I’ll scroll down a bit but I have no urges to want to write more.
It’s not just limited to Butch Girls. I don’t want to write anything. I am writing this only as an effort to explore possible reasons and maybe even solutions. I’ve let my writing slide recently since I have gotten more involved in CSS and PHP and HTML and all that other acronym soup. I’ve learned a lot but yet am far from being able to do anything outside of the safety of WordPress.
Maybe I can write a scene where 9yr old Lucy instructs thirtysomething yr old Kelly on why she should get a computer. Kelly is a firm believer in ye old encyclopedia and dictionary. I have a really short scene already from the original.
“I need to look something up on the computer.” Lucy closed her book.
“Oh? Like what?” Kelly didn’t look up from the plans she was drawing.
“What the former Yugoslavia had as it’s main agricultural product.”
“Can you get that from an encyclopedia?”
“Well, I guess.”
“Good. They are in those boxes all marked ‘encyclopedia’.” Kelly nodded toward the far wall.
“You don’t have a computer, do you?”
“Nope. Never saw the need.”
“You are a techno-Neanderthal.”
Kelly looked up and grinned. “You’re just mad ’cause you have to open another book. It’s good for you. Builds character.”
Maybe I can expand that some. Wait, do I feel a slight sensation in my brain formerly known as -gasp- creative thought? Nah, must be just the shifting of rocks.