What would it be like
to go through life
not knowing what a headache was?
to go through life
not knowing what a headache was?
What would it be like
never knowing the feeling
of brain matter pounding on bone?
rhythm of heart beat
wanting out
or wanting in?
I’d use a hammer to let it out
if I thought it would leave
I’d use a saw to let it in
if I thought it would be fix it
How much does it take
until the brain explodes?
How much does it take
before the vessels just pop
like too tight balloons?
Sounds gross, doesn’t it?
Blood and brains and muscles too tight
combine to stop my world.
I only wanted to read a book.
I only wanted to bend my head.
I only wanted to sleep.
Now I can do none of them.
Now I can do nothing
But look for the hammer
And sharpen the saw.
I have a lot of headaches. For the past 4 or 5 weeks I waken with one every night, only missing a couple of nights during that time. Always at night, always the same exact spot about 1/4″ dia. just below my hairline on left side. Never during the day. Ibuprofen or Tylenol knock it out, but sometimes only after 2 doses. No ideas, no correlations with drink, food, anything else. Sometimes almost crippling, begging to die kind of pain.
Had a boss once who was the best boss I ever had. One day when I was complaining about headache he said “I really have no idea what you’re talking about. I’ve never had one.” From that day on I hated that guy!
The heat raises blood pressure which can increase headaches. That is part of mine, but only a small part.
I got a screwed up cervical spine. I can’t turn or bend my neck/head for more than a few seconds before the left side muscles of my head starts to spasm. If I do this too many times, I start to get a headache. If I stop and relax (ice helps) then it backs off. However, most of the time it either sits there, constantly hurting or it explodes into a migraine.
This means I can’t bend my head to read, to type, to brush my dog, to wash/rinse my hair, to watch what I am doing at the kitchen counter, to do a lot of simple things without risk of major pain. I have several neck braces I use for support on bad days. But I tend to tense up when wearing one (don’t know why, I can’t seem to relax in those damn choking hot things).
And yes, I don’t like that guy either.