I never thought I would live to be this old. Granted, 45 isn’t old by no means. I just didn’t think I would see it.
2011. 11 years after Y2K. We partied like it was 1999 after cramming bottled water into the pantry.
I don’t make New Year Resolutions. Don’t believe in them. I do like the idea of fresh starts and I do like the concept of chasing out the old demons of the past year.
2010 was an odd year:
– I spent a chunk of it up Nawth with my family. As an update, Mom is at home, still trying to get over whatever it was. She can sit up on her own and feed herself with her left hand and that, my friend, is what really counts in the long run.
– We got two rooms mostly renovated. The bathroom was mostly done in June and the Rose Room got finished just a few weeks ago.
– Lorna and I celebrated our 20th anniversary. Amazing. This has been a rough year for our relationship but we have worked out the kinks. This house…we love this house but over the years its problems have caused us to become very apathetic to it. And that apathy has spread like mold into everything else. The work we have done on the house has been opening our eyes to a lot of things. We’ve acknowledged that there are things that have been irritating but we’ve not doing anything about it. Like a dripdripdripdrip of the faucet that never gets fixed yet keeps pushing our head further and further below our shoulders without us realizing it. So, yeah, 20 years. I love that woman. I can’t ever express how much.
– In January, I was diagnosed with first pre-diabetes and now Type II diabetes. Yay. I lost weight (25lbs!) then promptly gained most of it back during my insane summer. I am trying to re-establish those good habits I had developed. Taking my blood sugar readings is depressing as hell but it is something I need to do.
– We lost PopCorn this year. Amazingly, she was our only loss. We have 3 dogs and 2 cats. Feels about right. Joella (Rottweiler) is 10. Sam (Catahoula mix) is…4? Mike (Rottweiler mix) is 2. Sass is about 9 or so and Annie is just a year.
– I got a lot of writing done but due to the insane summer, but never got anything sent off. I wrote like a fiend prior to June then, crash boom bam. I am writing again, just spurts of ideas. I am once again scared shitless I will never have another new idea ever again. Terrified of it. I need to stop cat licking Simple Sarah and just send it off. I need to write at least one Butch Girl book and send it off. My publisher has been patient but I wouldn’t be surprised if she kicked my non-productive ass to the curb.
That’s about it.
Here’s hoping things get better, whatever those things may be. Here’s hoping we are happy in whatever we get around to doing and feeling. Here’s hoping we seek joy in the doing, not the getting it done.
And here’s hoping that 2011 is what you need it to be.